Hello there, So I'm 23 years old, been passionately studying physics for some time now. Oh it's been fun and fascinating, I wouldn't trade it for anything. I could apply for my B.S. in physics any day now. I've always been great at physics. My conceptual understandings, my neat and unique organizational skills, ooh I get giddy just thinking about it. I mess around with all types of mathematical modeling on scratch paper just cause I love it and I feel it's in some way useful. Anyways, I'm older now, and that stuff doesn't seem to matter. They've got me driving places and studying code. But this isn't what I learned in school. This isn't what I'm good at and it isn't what I enjoy. And every day I feel more and more like my passion for theory is useless. I'm supposed to know what I want to study. But I don't know general relativity, I don't understand inflation, how could I possibly make such an important decision? They're paying me 8.25 per hour. I feel like I'm being used. Here I am immersed in student loan debt being paid poverty level wages to do non-physics. On top of that I'm kinda depressed, I have no girl in my life, my everlasting social circle seems extremely stagnant.. I'm supposed to have applied for grad school, but I haven't, I haven't taken my GRE and I feel like I let down my research group during all this so I don't even feel like I have a research letter of recommendation. To distract myself from all of this I look up to the TV just to find that Donald Trump is running for president. On one hand I feel like I should "finish what I started" and go for the PhD, but on the other hand I feel like this is an extremely important time in my life and maybe I should consider taking another direction. Maybe focus more on what's gonna make me money. Or maybe something more drastic like going into politics or another field in philosophy. I do care very much so about politics lately. And do you even think I could compete in grad school with this type of mindset? Anyways, any advice, any questions? I really want to travel. I know the world map like the back of my hand but I've spent my whole life in Utah. I'm learning German because I was thinking I might be able to get involved in research in Switzerland or something. Do you think that's a likely possibility? Apologies for the perhaps overwhelming post. Any advice is appreciated. Thanks for reading.