Hi folks! I am formally uneducated past the age of 16, but I have always had a fascination for Physics, mainly from a need to understand reality. I am not religious but I am fascinated by all forms or philosophy and the study or existence and reality. I have read A brief history of time and James Kakalious book on quantum physics. I can no longer just work at this fairly basic understanding and I want to know where to start to really get an idea of what's actually going on. This is mainly so I can put to bed these many claims of quantum happenings showing that reality is holographical/consciousness affects matter/or does observation change it?/multiverse?/is consciousness an irriducable part of reality/solipsism???!/backwards causality?/ Orch or?.... Man, I want to know! I have pursued philosophical and reason based self study for years but I can not comment on things I don't understand, and I don't trust the charlatans but also don't trust many dogmatic nihilistic scientists either. Many fall in between! Can you tell me where to start with getting a better understanding? What books to read? Can you comments on above? Can you point me to any genuinely credible quantum based theory which fundamentally challenges what we know? I can't find the truly amazing stuff amongst all the mcphysicists on you tube! Many many thanks if you can help. Peace, and may both the strong and weak force be with you!