I'm a 2nd year math student. I'm taking 5 courses, but only 2 are math courses (differential equations and linear algebra). The rest are just 1st year electives I never did earlier (first year psychology and first semester biology). In short, I hate things like midterms, final exams, the idea of having 2 or 3, or 4 midterms in a day, you know, things like that. We've all been there done that. To make things worse, I am suffering from severe depression and I have a terrible sleep disorder. I will sleep some nights and other nights I won't. I sleep in and miss entire days of classes sometimes. I have dreams (or goals?) of going to graduate school and some day earning a doctorate. I want to teach higher education, but I can't imagine doing this (school) for the next 5 to 10 years. I can complete assignments and do very well on them. I don't cheat or copy answers or anything stupid. I put a lot of time and effort into these assignments, but when it comes down to an exam, I can't do it. For example, I was doing well with psychology (assignments and all), and I ended up getting 63% on a multiple choice exam (for a 1st year class). Grades like that will never get me into graduate school. I have a midterm in 7 and a half hours, and I get the concepts, I can do problems, but I feel like I'll do poorly on the exam. I hate it if I miss a class because of my illnesses (some people don't even call them that) and then I start to fall behind. I hate going to class and not getting what's going on that day because I missed the last class. Not to mention that fact that most instructor's don't care about my situation. If I was suffering from a serious physical illness, they might be more compassionate. I have talked to counsellors and they have never informed me about anything like medical withdrawal, aegrotat grades, etc. I once asked about it and the counsellor said he had no idea about how to deal with medical problems that affect school, and kept talking down to me. I told him to jam it. I went to medical services and they told me all they do is take medical certificates and say to the registrar's office whether or not it's a legitimate reason. I went to disability services and I was told it takes 3 months for an application for accommodation to go through. Even still, how would I be accommodated for my situation? I attend a 2 year college and my GPA is terrible because of my mental state. Back in high school I got straight As! I would aim for 100% on test and I would get it most of the time! I would be disappointed with 86% on a test, but now i'm worried i might get 36%. I know highschool is easier, but is the difference that big? I understand topics and I know true to my heart that my GPA does not reflect my knowledge. I have applied to a university and I've spoken to the disability services center about applying with special consideration, and even doing so, they have strict guidelines like: the illness must be showing drastic improvement, must send in letters from doctors (cost is $700 for a typed letter with a letterhead from a private doctor), things like that. I went in to see a disability specialist or whatever, and the way it seems, thousands of people apply for the same thing I'm applying for (special consideration). If I don't get in this year, that gives me a whole year to do what? Nothing? Retake courses? I can't afford to retake courses over and over, and even if I did, my GPA isn't going to change drastically. Take time off? So what, live with my single parent and get a job working at mcdonald's and end up getting an undergrad degree when i'm 36? I want to get school over with so I can get a decent paying career. Everyone I talk to who has a degree of some sort tells me to take my time, but it's so easy for them to say that since they're all good and done. I don't even care how much I make, I just want to be considered a smart person and be able to make it on my own. I just want to be happy, and school is making me the opposite. I know this is a school guidance section and not a life guidance one, but I'm sure many of you have been through similar experiences; I am not the only one. So my question to you is, how did you do it?