I'm 18. At school, maths and physics never really interested. In fact, I didn't really know what it was all about, or even properly realised that it had real world consequences. However, since leaving I've regained my childhood love of maths and physics particularly. I would love to study it at university, hopefully combined with (analytic) philosophy. I have two main questions: first, considering that my grounding is very poor, I would most likely have to redo my Maths and Physics GCSEs to even start upon A Levels. In light of this, is it somewhat quixotic of me to aspire to do it at degree level? Secondly, if it does seem a realistic possibility, where should I start? What books should I read to prepare me? I've read popular science books my Peter Atkins which touch on this stuff, as well as Feynman's 'Six Easy Pieces' and 'A Very Short Introduction to Particle Physics', but I feel as if I need to challenge myself with mathematical equations. Any help/advice is appreciated!