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Forestman
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My motivation for writing this is so that people can better understand mental illness in children.
When I turned 4 something major happened to me.
I started acting really strange.
When I would stare at the walls or ceilings I would see them breath.
When I would stare at objects, say furniture for example, I would see these objects move by either sliding or jerking in a certain direction.
Every now and then I would see strange white lights appear and disappear.
I started rolling my head at night.
I became very emotional, and anything could make me upset.
I had strange emotions as a child, but I don't know how to explain them.
I became completely incapable of of separating fantasy from reality.
I became very socially withdrawn. There were a few children that I liked to play with though.
I felt very different from the other children and socially awkward.
I would ramble a lot.
I liked to organize things in my mind over and over again.
My mom was over indulgent, but my dad was harsh and punitive, and was always punishing me for my strange behavior.
When I was in the second grade I was diagnosed with dyslexia. The doctors felt that I would never really be able to read. I probably had dyscalculia too, but it was never diagnosed.
When I turned about seven I started having severe depression.
Being different, getting picked on or excluded, feeling isolated, having a hard time in school, being mistreated by my father, and having depression caused me to have really low self esteem as a child.
Also during this time I would sometimes see big balls of light, hear voices, believe that satellites were watching me, and feel people touching me at night time.
After I turned seven I had weird body sensations too. For example, at night time while I would lay in bed it felt like my body was shrinking.
My favorite thing to do as a child was just go into the woods and hang out by myself.
Forestman
When I turned 4 something major happened to me.
I started acting really strange.
When I would stare at the walls or ceilings I would see them breath.
When I would stare at objects, say furniture for example, I would see these objects move by either sliding or jerking in a certain direction.
Every now and then I would see strange white lights appear and disappear.
I started rolling my head at night.
I became very emotional, and anything could make me upset.
I had strange emotions as a child, but I don't know how to explain them.
I became completely incapable of of separating fantasy from reality.
I became very socially withdrawn. There were a few children that I liked to play with though.
I felt very different from the other children and socially awkward.
I would ramble a lot.
I liked to organize things in my mind over and over again.
My mom was over indulgent, but my dad was harsh and punitive, and was always punishing me for my strange behavior.
When I was in the second grade I was diagnosed with dyslexia. The doctors felt that I would never really be able to read. I probably had dyscalculia too, but it was never diagnosed.
When I turned about seven I started having severe depression.
Being different, getting picked on or excluded, feeling isolated, having a hard time in school, being mistreated by my father, and having depression caused me to have really low self esteem as a child.
Also during this time I would sometimes see big balls of light, hear voices, believe that satellites were watching me, and feel people touching me at night time.
After I turned seven I had weird body sensations too. For example, at night time while I would lay in bed it felt like my body was shrinking.
My favorite thing to do as a child was just go into the woods and hang out by myself.
Forestman