Schizophrenia, anti-psychotics and Physics PhD

In summary: I guess people can break in.In summary, the individual discusses their concerns with memory problems while on anti-psychotics. They state that these medications do come with various side effects, some of which include problems with focus and attention, along with problems with memory. They mention that a careful adjustment in the dose of the medications has been effective in addressing these side effects while still ensuring proper treatment of the symptoms of schizophrenia. The individual also discusses how their symptoms have impacted their life, particularly in terms of their ability to remember new information.
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blade86
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Well, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia almost three years ago during my Masters degree when I was homeless since I was too paranoid to live in a house/apartment. Since then I have been on heavy anti-psychotics, completed my thesis and now am at the end of my second year of PhD of a top european fellowship program(Marie-curie). Because I don't like attending classes or being around people, I took 60 credits worth of classes during the first half year and somehow managed to pass all the courses (Usually it takes two years). I have also published 3 papers in JCP.

However, I keep feeling as though my brain is functioning at much lower capacity then before. I feel like I don't have a proper grasp of even the most basic concepts and that I am much stupider than everyone around me. Whenever I get into a discussion with someone, it feels as if they are really simplifying things so that I am can understand what they are saying. For example, I think that partial differential equations should be second nature to a PhD, however I feel like I couldn't really solve difficult problems unless I have a reference of some sort. If someone was to ask me to calculate the hydrogen energy levels, I would not be able to remember it , although I know in principle how it should be done. I think most PhD students have mastered books such as Arfkens' Mathematical Methods, Sakurai's QM or Jackson Classical Electrodynamics, but I only have a superficial understanding of the topics in these books.

I don't know if these concepts take more time to understand and learn, since during my bachelors I hardly studied anything, and only learned basic calculus and linear algebra, or whether my brain is too far fried to really understand anything anymore. I wonder if anyone else has been on strong anti-psychotics and the memory problems these caused for them, and what sort of support system there may be(online or otherwise).
 
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I'm paranoid schizophrenic too, so I know how ...unpredictable... life can be without the medication.

blade86 said:
However, I keep feeling as though my brain is functioning at much lower capacity then before.

Have you been diagnosed with a thought disorder? That would seem a more likely cause of cognitive difficulties. From what I have read, it takes a long time for anti-psychotics to really have strong negative effects.
 
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I commend you for your ability to still function at a high level with your illness. I have a family member with bi-polar schizophrenia and he is not able to live a complete life. He often complains of a foggy mind with the meds.
 
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To the OP:

Have you discussed with your psychiatrist regarding your concerns about memory problems while being on anti-psychotics? I'm aware that these medications do come with various side effects, including problems with focus and attention, along with problems with memory. I have read elsewhere that a careful adjustment in the dose of the medications (obviously under medical supervision) have been effective in addressing these side effects while still ensuring proper treatment of the symptoms of schizophrenia.

Perhaps a discussion like this may be helpful (if you haven't already had this discussion yet).
 
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You are telling us that in half year you passed courses that it usually takes 2 years for a normal person and you still worry about your brain capacity to understand things or solve problems... Ok let's face it your problem might be that you are not God after all, no matter how smart you are you are not satisfied.
 
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Thanks for the replies.
@AlephNumbers how have you dealt with your symptoms, and the side effects of medication? General confusion and delusions are part of schizophrenia, so I suppose it certainly forms some part of thought disorder.

@Greg Bernhardt Thanks, appreciate your support.

@StatGuy2000 Yes, I have discussed it with my psychiatrist, but the alternate form to pills they suggest are weekly injections, which I don't think I am a fan of.. but they seemed to suggest it has much less side effects.

@Delta² Lol @ not god after all. I think exams don't really prove anything, especially if you have access to past examinations you can see the patterns and superficially learn the methods how to solve certain types of problems without any real understanding of what it means. The main issue is that with the medications I have trouble remembering new information in the long term, unless for example I am working on a problem day in and day out for a week non-stop, but if I take a break for a couple of days I will have to restart right from the beginning to understand it again. I have to write even simple things like the 4-digit entrance code to my apartment , because if I don't use it for a single day then I end up forgetting it.
 
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Ok apparently the medicine causes you a problem in memory. I am not a doctor, sorry i can't give any good advice for that.

But still what you have accomplished is way too good (you are in a Phd program afterall, that's really something believe me i didnt manage to enter a Phd program). You have the right not to be satisfied with what you got in a way that this will make you to evolve your intelligence and your personality (if you feel you got superficial understanding of something then you study it more to understand it better and deeper), but not in a negative way (like omg i can't solve fast for the hydrogen energy levels, i am useless). But yes the memory problem maybe will hold you a bit behind, i hope not much and i wish you find the way to beat it.

I think we all should remember to what Einstein said, "Genius is 99% hard work and 1% talent".
 
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blade86 said:
how have you dealt with your symptoms, and the side effects of medication?

Well, I stopped taking the medication. As for how I deal with the symptoms, I don't.

Quite frankly, it's impossible to directly deal with the symptoms.
 
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This has drifted into suggestions of medications and medical/psychiatric advice, which we do not give out here. Please be sure that you are receiving proper psychiatric care and continued good luck.
 

1. What is Schizophrenia?

Schizophrenia is a chronic mental disorder characterized by a combination of symptoms including hallucinations, delusions, disorganized thinking and behavior, and difficulty with concentration and motivation. It is a serious and complex illness that affects approximately 1% of the population worldwide.

2. How do anti-psychotic medications work for Schizophrenia?

Anti-psychotic medications work by blocking the effects of dopamine, a neurotransmitter in the brain that is believed to play a role in the development of schizophrenia. By reducing dopamine levels, these medications can help alleviate symptoms such as hallucinations and delusions.

3. What is the link between Schizophrenia and a Physics PhD?

There is no known direct link between Schizophrenia and obtaining a Physics PhD. However, individuals with Schizophrenia may face challenges in pursuing higher education due to their symptoms and the side effects of medication. It is important for those with Schizophrenia to seek support and accommodations in order to achieve their academic goals.

4. Can studying Physics help us better understand Schizophrenia?

While the exact cause of Schizophrenia is still unknown, studying Physics and other sciences can provide valuable insights into the functioning of the brain and potential underlying mechanisms of the disorder. Continued research in this area may lead to a better understanding of Schizophrenia and more effective treatments.

5. Are there any known connections between Schizophrenia and Physics research?

There is currently no established link between Schizophrenia and Physics research. However, some researchers have explored potential connections between the two, such as the potential role of quantum mechanics in understanding consciousness and mental illness. Further research is needed to fully understand the potential connections between Schizophrenia and Physics.

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