Philosopher_k said:
I have long dreamed of being a mathematician/theoretical physicist. I was willing to devote my life to a subject that i loved. Learning about black holes string theory, branes, cosmology and particle physics. I then come on here, expressing my dream, only to be told that the chances of reaching my goals are close to nill.
The faster you get rid of old unrealistic dreams, the more quickly you can find something that is realistic. If you want to spend the rest of your life figuring out "how the universe works" then that's realistic.
Also don't confuse cosmology with "string theory." Most of the current work in cosmology involves gas dynamics that you can see in a fire place. String theory has as far as I can tell been totally and utterly useless for cosmology. The other thing if you want to study black holes, there are lots and lots of black holes out that are observable.
This pisses me off. I love physics and yet i am told that i may never make it to a decent school or even become a professor!
I don't know if you really love physics. It's not clear to me that you understand enough about what theoretical physics really is in order make a reasoned decision about whether you really like it or not.
I used to dream of being the next einstein, revolutionizing 21st century physics. I was so stupid i actually thought it was possible.
That's just not how physics works. Physics is a slow grinding process, in which you try really hard to make one piece of the puzzle fit with others.
Now i am looking at the possibility of being too stupid to get a phd. I will not match hawking or penrose, I will never prove any famous theorems. So what is the point? I seem to be asking this alot!
That's something that you have to figure out. In fact, it's not hard to discover something new and original about the universe. If after grinding through numbers for years you discover one thing (even if that one thing is that you've been on a dead end for the last decade) that's pretty interesting.
So what *is* the point?
The thing is i am so confused and frustrated. I have to decide what to major for college in and then i have no idea what i actually want to do with my life!
I'm at least twice your age, and I still haven't figured what I what to do with my life.
Working in industry/finance just does not appeal to me.
Since you haven't tried it, I don't know how you can tell.
Also, sometimes you just have to play the cards that you are given. If Harvard rang me up and offered me a tenured faculty position, I'd be zipping out the door. But I don't think that is going to happen. So given what I can get, what's the best I can do that gets me what I want.
I want to be a thinker, but i just seem to get told i can't be. I am told i am lacking in talent and that it is worthless to dream...
If you want to dream about being a research professor, that's great. My dream is to be a starship captain. But personally, I just get annoyed with always dreaming and always thinking. I want to make stuff happen. O.K, I was born a few centuries too early to pilot a starship, but given what's out there, what's the closest thing that I can get.
Well guys give yourself a pat on the back for crushing a kids dreams.
Just telling you what reality is like. Personally, I think that physics is *really* *really* cool, but what you have in your mind, isn't what physics is like at all.