Philosopher_k said:
Hey guys. I am a final year high school student and have lately been researching a career in Mathematics/Theoretical physics. Most recently i have come to the conclusion that:
1. I am not as gifted in mathematics as i thought
2. I do not enjoy PURE mathematics as much as i once believed i did.
I had this view that mathematicians sat around and had massive eureka moments (like Archimedes), solving problems such as fermats last theorem, or Poincare’s conjecture with flashes of genius. Yet when i look at the actual proofs just noted, i am struck by just how different my perceptions are. For example Wiles' proof is something like 150 pages long and filled with long definition/lemma/proof style formatting. It isn't that the ideas are not clever of right, its just that in the end i don't really care that much about ricci flow or modular forms as much as i thought i would. A modular form is not some abstract idea that exists wether we care or not, it is a definition which we have formed so as to define more objects. Disagree all you want, i have come to disagree with even plato.
With my love of mathematics corrupted i quickly turned to theoretical physics. After all what could be cooler than discovering a theory about dimensions, tiny strings, other universes or time itself. So once again i began to research the field of mathematical/theoretical physics, only to find that once again i was misled. The field was all about Gauges, Metric spaces and Eigenvectors, whatsmore the questions were not as philosophical as i enjoyed, no answers to the mystery’s of time or how the universe came into being, more about how abstract mathematics was perceived to fit in with reality.
For years i have read popsci books by hawking, Kaku and greene, speaking about the exact things i love. Yet why is the practice of theoretical physics so different to these ideals? What is wrong with me? did i miss some gene which stops me loving mathematics as much as Edward Witten or Stephen Hawking? Does it just not click in my head? Or do i just need more training in mathematics and physics before i see the true beauty beneath the surface?
I have tried to find this beauty but so far, no matter which college book i read, there is nothing like the excitement i felt when reading a brief history of time.
Are the days of Einstein gone? Did the ever exist in the first place? I am so damn confused!
If i am right, then what the hell do i do with my life?
There are a few of issues here:
1.) Honestly, in sum total I've probably read about 5 popular science articles in my life; however, a NOVA episode was something that helped me make my decision to become a physicist (I should note that I'm a 4th year physics and mathematics BS student, so I'm not actually a physicist yet although I've done professional research). I was not attracted to physics because it sounded cool, but because I enjoy mathematics and the application of mathematics. In my third year of high school, I took a physics course and hated it, although I thought the ideas were interesting. I decided to take another physics course, and ended up enjoying the difficulty of physics and the beauty of using equations to describe reality. My enjoyment of the two has only increased since then. So, I'm in a unique situation where reading pop-sci never interested me, and so my views of physics were never really tainted by them.
2.) Along the lines of 1, in my first university course on physics, my professor explained to the class: "If the thought of spending hours trying to figure out how a fix a piece of equipment to get an experiment working sounds interesting, you should think about experimental physics. If the thought of spending hours trying to solve mathematical problems in order to get closer to understanding the predictions made by a model sounds interesting, you should consider theoretical physics." My advice is to both think and not think in the long term. At the moment, you should ask yourself the following question: "Do you enjoy the mathematics you're doing now? Do see and appreciate the logical elegance behind them? Do you find mathematics to be interesting at the level that your current level?" The thing is, statements about metric tensors, eigenvectors, and gauge fields sounds very intimidating. But that's only fair; when you were a seven year old, the concept of trigonometry sounded hard. You weren't ready for the idea, so of course they sounded difficult and overly technical; but this is precisely why we send students through undergrad --to get them ready to learn advanced concepts. So don't worry about what you're learning in the long term --if you enjoy the technical mathematics that you're currently engaged in, this will tell you more about what math you will think is interesting in the future and will be more informative than the advanced math you think is interesting now. With that said, think in the long term. If you don't like the math you're doing now and don't feel like it's interesting, you may very well want to consider. However, I do have to inquire: mathematics is the language of physics and mathematics is very technical, so why did you expect that physicists and mathematicians wouldn't be engaged in very technical language? Metric tensors, gauge groups and fields, eigensystems, etc, are mathematics; these make up parts of the language of physics. Did you really expect that physics wasn't going to be technical?
Also, I can tell you the following with utmost certainty --if you don't like theoretical physics because it's too technical, you will absolutely abhor modern mathematics. While some modern physicists have ignored the advances in abstract mathematics, absolutely every modern pure mathematician almost exclusively engages in abstract mathematics.
3.) Being a physicist is not easy. If you don't like things because they get too technical and are not romantic enough, I can say that physics is definitely not for you. Again, you really don't know how you're going to feel about advanced math and physics yet because you're not at a level where you can understand them and either appreciate or be indifferent to them --only time will really tell that (should you choose to go this route). But make no mistake, mathematics and physics are incredibly difficult and technical subjects. You will struggle, you will fail to understand concepts initially, and you will challenged in every course. None of this means, ultimately, that you'll be a bad physicist or mathematician, but you should be aware that the sciences are not easy. Like Nietzsche said, and this particularly true in math and physics, "whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger."
My advice is, although perhaps I'm biased, to continue on with a double major in mathematics and physics at a university level. If after a few semesters you find you still enjoy neither, to switch majors or find a different career. There's no wrong or right answer to this, you simply should find what you like doing.