As of right now I don't really have the money required, nor the time required, to pursue a full-time degree in physics. Where I want to go is quite broad so I'll toss out a few of my interests and see what field(s) I'd best fit in and then we can go from there: In my whole life I've looked at our current progress as humanity and I've been disappointed -- whether that's founded in a correct view of science and progress I'm unsure...but I've always wanted and dreamed that we should have a great deal of strong technology by now. Actual space travel, force field technology, intertial dampeners, interstellar space travel, hover cars, digital HUD systems, etc. etc. etc. And while we're kind of creeping up on some cool designs, the fundamental basics of what we do and how we do it hasn't changed much...in this I mean that we, well we still u se gasoline as a major fuel source. I imagine by now we wouldn't found a fuel source that doesn't rely on nonrenewable sources. In all of this and my years of studying the concepts and theories and just being a hobbyist I've found that all of the scientific theories we have could at least be tested at a fundamental level, and if proven correct could launch mankind into space and beyond almost instantly, if we could do the following: 1. Develop a method of mass producing antimatter at low cost and with an endless supply. 2. Be able to harness the use of antimatter in such a way that we can manipulate it to manipulate gravitational fields, generate force fields, propel ourselves into outerspace, etc. So with that, those are the two fields I want to focus on the most. I want to study different methods of creating antimatter rather than smashing things together and hoping something comes out (I have seen that this has been effective in creating a small amount of antimatter) and also how to properly apply it once we've done so. Where I need to work: 1. I suck at math...not just suck, I'm absolutely horrid at it. I barely get algebra, but I really think it's just that I don't quite understand all the rules and if I had everything put in front of me and explained I probably could grasp it quite well...but I've never had that so...lol, I suck at math. I mean come on, let's be realistic, I know about 40% of a my times tables up to 12...I suck at math, really. 2. I'm good at grasping detailed and complex ideals and concepts in physics. In high school I read through Kip Thorne's book "Black Holes and Time Warps" and was able to understand every bit of it, but you throw a math problem in there and it's like scrambling eggs...it's horrible! But in all of that, the more I study physics the more I learn that there's a lot I don't know about the physics of the universe. So, which degree(s) should I shoot for for those two areas of physics? In addition, are there any free resources where I can quickly learn math from Algebra to Calculus 2?