Hi First time poster here. I recently applied to the University of Toronto in which I intend to do the Math and Physics Specialist, this university has a particular bad reputation for killing GPA; however, I'm confident that its mostly myth and with hard work anything can be achieved. The only problem is that I never took Physics in high school. When I was a child, I did very well in math and was very interested in science, as I'm sure most children were. However, I did extremely poorly in high school and struggled with a lot of anxiety, self-esteem issues, and in general I was born with a high level of neuroticism. I failed every single math and science course I've taken and had to retake them in summer school to be able to graduate, and most of my class I would be in the bottom grade percent-wise. I wasn't decent at anything. In my final year, I was so discouraged I vowed to never take math or science ever again and honestly seriously contemplated just dropping out, thankfully I didn't. Anyway, long story short, I been at a community college, and been all to pull my life together as well as do well academically in math and science courses; I'm even the top of my program and I've been hired to tutor my peers by my college. I've taken Calculus, Biology, Chemistry and Physics and particularly developed an interest and deep respect for Mathematics and Physics. However, this is the first time my college is offering physics and they absolutely have no idea what their doing. Sigh, lets just say I didn't learn anything from those classes and the professors they got were absolutely insulting to the field I respect so much (seriously, one of them said "they weren't good at math" so only taught us (poorly) the theory, I'm literally more confused and know less about physics then before I took the course). Anyway, I'm now 19 and I've applied to university and will be starting in September 2017. I'm going to take the summer to catch up and learn any math and physics I missed out on in high school. Still, I'm having my doubts whether I can actually do this or not, especially without high school preparation. I'm adamant on doing my program I've chosen, even if I might end in a relapse of my high school experience. I've talked for long enough; knowing the intensity of physics itself, is it even possible that I can do well in that program without the high school preparation and if not, how can I prepare myself once the summer begins and how shall I go about it? I'll have 4 months.