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I'll try to give you guys the short of it.
I am usually quite critical of myself and focus on the negatives, but right now I think I need to list some positive things, to be more optimistic. Forgive me if I sound "immodest" since I have absolutely no intention or reason to "brag."
I like math a lot and major in it at a top US school. I have done well in courses like real analysis and abstract algebra, partially because I like it while many others find it tiresome. I have also done well in writing and humanities classes. While I know gpa doesn't mean that much, I'm proud of getting nearly a 4.0 while taking many difficult classes.
I also managed to score top 200 on a national math competition, called the "putnam." I think I can do much better in my remaining two years, after learning from my mistakes.
Yet I know I'm not anything remotely like the "geniuses" or even "very good." But I'm definitely competent. I can learn abstract theories quickly and am good at mathy problem solving.
I like math a lot but my level of talent doesn't justify me going into academia. I absolutely cannot afford to be a poor graduate student. I need to make money to support my aging parents and I want to build a better financial foundation for my life as well.
I also don't want to do law, medical school, or software engineering/hardcore programming. Not like there's anything wrong with those, but it's simply not for me. In high school it was easy to go above and beyond, because math was so much better than the dull subjects in school. Pushing myself through Rudin's intro analysis book and parts of Herstein's group theory chapter really opened my eyes about math.
Not only that, it helped me achieve a very concrete goal (getting into a top school, and at the time I still had vague ideas of wanting to do research).
But now I feel that the clear path is gone and all I see is fog. I have nothing to grip on, to pull me through life.
Obviously I have heard "finance" and "consulting" tossed around a lot, and have read some things. but for me it's kinda hard to get excited about them. I definitely don't want to do investment banking, and consulting feels kinda meh...(I mean, what good has McKinsey done for society?) I know I just need to think more creatively, to stop being defined by other peoples' paths. To not be afraid to try something crazy. But I am so lost, and I have to admit, somewhat scared.
I guess what I want most is to see people talk about their experiences. Obviously I'm not the first one to have a crisis like this. Although I'm not a physics major, I feel like math and physics majors face similar things when approaching graduation.
TLDR: lost college student, stories and experiences or any advice please!
I am usually quite critical of myself and focus on the negatives, but right now I think I need to list some positive things, to be more optimistic. Forgive me if I sound "immodest" since I have absolutely no intention or reason to "brag."
I like math a lot and major in it at a top US school. I have done well in courses like real analysis and abstract algebra, partially because I like it while many others find it tiresome. I have also done well in writing and humanities classes. While I know gpa doesn't mean that much, I'm proud of getting nearly a 4.0 while taking many difficult classes.
I also managed to score top 200 on a national math competition, called the "putnam." I think I can do much better in my remaining two years, after learning from my mistakes.
Yet I know I'm not anything remotely like the "geniuses" or even "very good." But I'm definitely competent. I can learn abstract theories quickly and am good at mathy problem solving.
I like math a lot but my level of talent doesn't justify me going into academia. I absolutely cannot afford to be a poor graduate student. I need to make money to support my aging parents and I want to build a better financial foundation for my life as well.
I also don't want to do law, medical school, or software engineering/hardcore programming. Not like there's anything wrong with those, but it's simply not for me. In high school it was easy to go above and beyond, because math was so much better than the dull subjects in school. Pushing myself through Rudin's intro analysis book and parts of Herstein's group theory chapter really opened my eyes about math.
Not only that, it helped me achieve a very concrete goal (getting into a top school, and at the time I still had vague ideas of wanting to do research).
But now I feel that the clear path is gone and all I see is fog. I have nothing to grip on, to pull me through life.
Obviously I have heard "finance" and "consulting" tossed around a lot, and have read some things. but for me it's kinda hard to get excited about them. I definitely don't want to do investment banking, and consulting feels kinda meh...(I mean, what good has McKinsey done for society?) I know I just need to think more creatively, to stop being defined by other peoples' paths. To not be afraid to try something crazy. But I am so lost, and I have to admit, somewhat scared.
I guess what I want most is to see people talk about their experiences. Obviously I'm not the first one to have a crisis like this. Although I'm not a physics major, I feel like math and physics majors face similar things when approaching graduation.
TLDR: lost college student, stories and experiences or any advice please!