I am writing this e-mail from Germany. I came to Germany to do a PhD in sociology. I hold a bachelor and master degree in economics in my country. Actually I didn't choose my bachelor field intentionally. My inability as a teenager at the age of 16-17 to discover my abilities and fields of interest, fear of failure, concerns about my future, my family's expectations about me to have a good job, inadequacy of education system in my country etc. all these factors played a role in my decision. When I started to study, I hoped to like my field. Even I didn't hate it, I did not love it as well. After the graduation, I worked in various works but they also didn't make me happy. I thought that, following the academic journey may bring the moral satisfaction and happiness that I look for. Because of that, I came to Germany to do a PhD. But during the passed time, I started to ask myself several questions. Why I do a PhD? What is the real reason about it? Do I really want to follow that path? What would I prefer to be doing now? What would really make me happy in this life? I also started to face with myself. At the same time, I remembered my childish dreams from my childhood such as becoming a scientist and discover a time or teleportation machine. I imagined myself in front of a blackboard with full of equations and so on. I also remembered my failed attempts before starting to university. All these memories awakened something inside me. I rediscovered the desire inside me again. I want to study physics in Germany and become a physicist. I think on it every single day. You may say that, it is not required to have a degree in physics if you are interested in it. But understanding the universe in a better way or acquiring the problem solving abilities that physicist gain during the study attracts me deeply. I repeat the mantra that, “it is never too late to follow my dreams”, “I have just one life and would like to spend it all with working on something that I really have a passion” However, many questions and obstacles stand in front of my dreams . I am 38 years old, married and expecting a baby. Even my wife supports me about my dreams, I have many responsibilities and I am not so “free” in every sense compare to when I was 17-18 years old. It is also said that, studying physics requires mental agility which is also related to age. For studying physics in Germany, I have to learn very good German and pass the university entrance exam in my country. For that, I have to learn high school math, physics, chemistry and biology to pass this exam. I know that, physics is a very difficult field in general and you must learn a lot of Math. When I was at high school, my Math and Physics grades were average. I wasn't a brilliant student in science in general. May be, I didn't know at that time how to learn Math and Physics in a right and effective way. Or may be I am not as talented as to become a physicist. I am also aware of the fact that, if I succeed to have a physics degree, I will not have a career options like working at university or in a research lab. There is a competition in this field and the age discrimation is reality. I am actually interested in studying physics just for learning the physics and discover the universe. I have not expectations about money or career positions. But I believe that, if you love a lot and be passionate about something, you will be successful in some way. However, I am afraid of failure in this journey. I need any kind of ideas, advices and experiences of you, especially who studied physics. But I need something beyond inspirational and motivational words. If you consider my situation and conditions, does it worth to study physics? Do I make a mistake or passing over the reality with having a dream like studying physics at the age of 38?