Hello, I stopped studying math after grade 10. Then many years later I did. 1-calculus dairies. (story book with personal calculus experience ) 2-idiot's guide to calculus. 3-Mathematical Methods in the Physical Sciences(Mary Boas) 4-Advance Engineering Mathematics (Erwin Kreyszig) 5-real analysis, and some pure mathematics books, few chapters here and there. 6-little bit of octave/matlab skills.Little bit of c, some python some shell.. As much as I like looking at the symbols and and writing equation on paper and solving them, I get side tracked.. and think why I am doing it? My question to you is: How do I connect this stuff to reality? Or I just learn new stuff and marvel the beauty ??