Oh, you want to hear positive things instead of realistic advice? OK, got it! You should have said that from the start.
Come on, we offer very harsh criticisms, sure. No doubt about that. But misguided? Your application is not good at all. You don't seem to be fixing this at all. These are just observations of what is happening. Grad school admissions will see it the exact same way. How is it misguided?
You act like getting into a grad school is the final hurdle and then you can finally go on and be the scientist you've always dreamed of. Sorry, but getting into grad schools is one of the easiest steps you can take. It only gets harder from there on. Producing papers at a high rate, high competition, asking for grants,... It's just a very very difficult career path. You will need to work extremely hard and improve yourself constantly. If you don't, you drop behind and eventually you drop out of the race. If you're already not really doing much to actually improve yourself to get into grad school, how will you handle grad school? How will you handle beyond grad school? What will you do as a professor when your grants are denied? Just wait a few years doing nothing and apply for grants again?
I'm very sorry if this sounds like harsh criticism. I can't say it is intended like this, but I think it is something you need at this point in your life.