Brian8017 said:
Well it seems like the answer to my question is yes, it is too late. I can't see any way I could return to school for 10 years while not earning any money, then as Hippo said try competing with people in their 20's while I'm just turning 40.
So do you think without a PhD I'd be wasting my time? A masters wouldn't be enough?
NO. It isn't too late, so long as you are determined. Someone else mentioned already that upper level physics courses are mostly mathematics--and that is true--but I don't believe that ought to dissuade you from pursuing something that you care about.
You are only 30 after all. And even if you were 40, if you had the will power and the money, you really could do anything--including changing your life around this way.
I would suggest this...
1) Take the good advice that has already been stated: go back to the community college and take one class: "General Physics 101, Part 1," or whatever they call it. Just make sure that you take the Calculus based course, and not strictly the algebra/trig course.
2) Study as much of the text in private--science professors are notorious for being terrible teachers, so you're pretty much on your own anyway; but if you have a well written book you'll be fine. See how you do after the first semester.
3) If you are satisfied with the outcome, take General Physics Part 2.
4) After a year of being back in college, you might just be able to finagle your work schedule a little better. Yes it is true that it is difficult to find a place that would cater to a part-time student of physics (and in the evenings no less). But by that point...you know: there is always serendipity...ask yourself this question again of "what do I really want to do" after you get this far. By then, you may very well have landed yourself a part-time job video recording time-elapsed experiment for the department head (you never know). YOu make connections and opportunities arise only as a result of your ensconcing yourself in the field. You cannot be an ostrich and expect results. Be in the thick of things.
One other thing I would also suggest is (eventually) start targeting your own niche in the field; and try to relate it to the skills you know you already have.
I'll bet you'd enjoy Optics or "Photonics" (whichever you prefer) very greatly. Also, if you work with cameras, I'd imagine you might pursue interests in Electronics, or even Waves.
There is a yearning in you obviously, and I think that is very important. You do not necessarily have to land yourself the government Nuclear Physicists position someday--start out small and work your way up.
Yes, some of it will be boring; all subjects are like that. And indeed some of it will be very challenging. I confess that I did absolutely no job while an undergraduate physics major; and I was deeply grateful for it. Still it really depends on the person I think. For me at least, I needed to focus. Maybe you are different--my weaknesses are not necessarily your own. Remember that.
And I seriously doubt that anybody here could honestly say that they completely understood everything all of the time.
"Oh yeah! That quantum exam, I completely aced it...I could rewrite quantum mechanics backwards and with my hands up my [expletive deleted]! Schoedinger, you just got owned!"
Just remember there are a great many braggarts in every field; don't be intimidated, just tune the world out like a good little nerd and get down to work.
Sometimes...even your professors will be full of ess-ach-eye-tee. We had a guy once that used to come into class late every day, looking like someone just beat the crap out of him in an alley before he came over there; and then would babble on with his back turned about E&M like he wrote the damn textbook, AND STILL screwed up the laws of attraction.
Anyway, I'm getting away from the point.
Start small. Try it. You'll probably love the general class more than anything else above it anyway if you love physics.
And if in the end, it doesn't work out after that first year taking one class each semester (unless they require you to retake Calc I simultaneously), be satisfied with yourself for not allowing yourself to be in a rut.
Seriously, you may end up going back to college and discover in something else even.
The point is to never stop trying to improve yourself.