I have no clue of what is wrong with me. I had a chemistry test this Thursday and I had studied thoroughly two days before the test. When the day came, my brain completely knowcked out and I could not remember what I should do to solve the problems. Some of reasonings were succesful because they were easy, but all the other things completely left all my consciousness. I doubt that I should immerse in chemistry next year, but I have never been the type to give up. No matter how hard I have fought for little result and how discouraging the result have been and how it has affected my selv-confidence, I have never given up. It was the mathematical part of my brain, though I do begin ot doubt that I have one, that faltered. Idiotically, some of the tasks in my books I had not gone through and these were necessary to be able to solve. I managed to get through them an hour before the test started, but it all disappeared when I started. Why am I so unmathematical? You know what? If I will not get high marks in physics and maths the next two years and because of that disgrace, be unable to study physics, I will take my life. Physics is what I want to do, what I want to live with and research in and if nature does not allow me that, I will take my life. Irrational, yes, but why do I have to be so rational all the time? That is another question.. Please help or advice me or say something encouraging!!