saint, i think you need to realize how much of a grip society status has on you and how much that grip truly makes you unhappy. are you and your family healthy and happy? do you make good memories within the life you afford now? you have the "grass is always greener on the other side" outlook which is certain to make you unhappy. you have one thing that many of us here in america do not have: you are buying your own home. my husband and i make 5 times what you make, but we cannot afford to buy a house (yet). not even one that is half as decent as yours, but i do have a home, i have a family whom i love, and they love me (so they say

), and most of all, we are all very healthy and happy. anything sort of material gains above that would make me truly rich.
there is a quote, although i do not remember the exact words, but it implies a rich man has money, but a wealthy man has time. what good is life if you have a lot of money but not any time? your need and desire for so much money is ultimately making you unhappy and leaves you feeling miserable.