Matthewkind said:
But I don't think you need to be a genius in order to uncover the secret of Nature
One bit of good news is that the universe has a lot of secrets. Figuring out one thing that no one knew before is not that hard. About tensors. In my job, we figured out that if you calculate tensors equation using this neat trick, you can do it a lot faster than if you don't use the math trick. I don't think that anyone knew this five years ago, because it involves some computer hardware that didn't exist five years ago.
I just think if you don't give up, no matter what has happened, and no matter what will happen, you'll definitely find what you're searching for.
You need to think differently. You almost certainly will not find what you were looking for. The good news is that you'll likely find something different, and what you find might be more interesting.
Just to give an example of this. One way that you can get closer to a unified field theory is to say that for every "matter-like" particle there is a "energy-like" particle. This makes the equations balance, but it has the problem of predicting a lot of particles that no one has observed. This is called "supersymmetry." Now someone asked what the universe would look like if it was filled with supersymmetric particles. When they did this they figured out that the important thing about how a particle would affect the universe is how "hot" it is, and that you'd get a universe that looks pretty much a lot like what we see if we assume that the universe is filled with cold dark matter.
Now its possible that dark matter are these "supersymmetric particles" but it turns out that even if supersymmetry is totally wrong (which most people think it is), that you haven't wasted your time, because it lead you onto thinking about "dark matter."
And even if I don't make some ground-breaking discovery
Making a ground breaking discovery is a requirement for getting your Ph.D. (seriously) They won't hand you your doctorate until you've discovered something new. Setting things up so that you will discover something new over the course of five years is what you learn to do in graduate school.
simply being able to marvel at the beautiful solutions hitherto made and standing before the sheer elegance of the universe...
They again, maybe not. One reason that people are amazed when you come up with something elegant is that most of the time, the universe is messy and incomprehensible. The reason that physics is hard and interesting is that the universe *isn't* very elegant. So when you find a deep connection somewhere, it's really cool, because it really doesn't happen very often.
But when you find some connection, its often quite interesting. Who knew that the mathematics of stock prices are very similar to the mathematics of particle flow in supernova? You find a "magic connection" and then you stare at the equations very closely to see if you understand *why* there is a magic connection.
I should point out this is why banks hire physicists. You can find the formula for stock prices in any basic finance textbook (google for Black-Scholes model). If you want to just run the formula, you can put it into an excel spreadsheet. However, that's not good enough for me. I want to really understand *why* the formula works, which is useful because there are a lot of situations when it suddenly stops working.