hello everyone I have always been curious about science and math but have been terrible at both as a result of my failure to study and pay attention, I failed math twice in high school from skipping, not studying and ignoring my teacher, I also failed physics twice for the same reason. However i have since gotten quite hopeful about science and math having understood its philosophical desires and roots, and have undergone a serious independent study of math and physics, i am however not at calculus yet. I have set up the summer and winter semesters as the semesters in which I get my high school physics and math credits for the programs, and consider these to be where i make it or break it, still it seems that even if i perform well in these classes and enter the physics program, i might still be in a bad way. Im 20 years old and i realize how badly i failed in the past, i want to study physics and hopefully afterwards engineering but my past makes it seem as if that's impossible, so my final question would be, do i have to be a naturally talented individual, or even one who's built their skill from a young age to do this? Or can i do what im doing now ( with decent progress) and independently with hard work catch up.