the dynamics of attractor fields (sinks) and repulsion fields (sources) seem to play a part in many things that aren't strictly quantifiable such as consciousness. unlike other realms, like attracts like here and oppposites repel. those who are peaceful, loving, and well-adjusted are generall repelled by those who are belligerant, non-loving or hateful, and not well-adjusted (whatever that means in your culture). and those of the latter type (<200 on the calibration) are repulsed by ideas of being still, peaceful, loving, especially agape love, and those that seem to have bliss all the time. this is all just general statements, generalizations.
God appears to me to be both an infinite attractor field with infinite gradations of attraction and an infinite repulsion field with infinite gradations of repulsion. in order to be all that is, this kind of infinite spectrum would seem to have to necessarily be the case. so I'm wondering if this is why there is duality. mam's theory is that perceived duality of opposites on this planet is due to there being a choice made long ago for there to be two kinds of people: beings and droids. mam, at least, think (dare i say know?) that this is either the only or one of a few planets where both kinds of people exist together. one wonders why there isn't just one kind of particle or one flavor of electric charge but are even those not just different vibrations of the same thing? unity at the root of it all and duality just an artifact of perception? if so, why have it? is it due to our incomplete state of evolution? if so, we're approaching a time, with so many more people in a state of unity, when the normal perception and even way of percieving will change.
i think that the field feels repulsive precisely when one has not surrendered their will to God's will to some extent. kind of like forcing a compass to be out of sync with the magnetic field. there are forces on that compass trying to align it to a destiny (where the attractor field is going, so to speak, not that it's going anywhere) but due to free will, we are all free to oppose this attractor field; in such cases it feels like a repulsion field and any divine notions are not regarded as they are.
i put some quotes from I along with the map of the scale of consciousness for anyone interested. i know I'm breaking the hell out of the law but i hope hawkins wouldn't mind; it's just a couple of pages from his book, after all, and I'm quoting it for educational purposes and not for profit. here goes nothing:
http://www.alephnulldimension.net/articles/phoenix/I quotes.htm
the intellect cannot create the disolution of the ego. the ego can't dissolve itself. that requires help from your higher self and/or God. the intellect can take you up to 499 on the map from what i remember.
it is my understanding that the reincarnation cycle is meant to take a soul through various incarnations up through the scale and the last life lived will be the one during which one finally "gets it" or gets part of it. what happens after that i can obviously only speculate because I'm no avatar. physical life, including the hologram projecting onto the consciousness island called phoenix, in this case, will cease to appear artifactual and only three dimensional. you could call that state without those artifacts nirvanna or heaven if you will, though I'm not making a particular claim as to what those states or places are like though i recently heard an interesting theory. heaven and hell are the same place but you will experience it subjectively differently according to how your consciousness calibrates on the scale of consciousness. that sounds a lot like earth...
may your journey be graceful,
phoenix