Hi, It seems like there's a long history of threads in the academic forums where people address their emotional issues alongside their academic queries. I'd like to keep this a general/health topic without straying much into academics. I have some questions for those of you who have been treated for depression. How long have you been receiving treatment, what kind, and were you able to lead a high functioning life after hitting rock bottom? Did your emotional problems close the doors you wanted to get through professionally? I have been avoiding telling anyone (educators) about my situation out of fear of being stigmatized. A few months ago I made a thread in the academic forum about my situation. I'm a 26-year old with a long history of (unaddressed, mistaken for shyness) social phobia. I'm just now completing my bachelors degree that I've wanted since I was a teenager, after having gone through much bureaucratic troubles just to get into physics(had to get a 2 year degree in a field I wasn't interested in, then spend 2 years at a distance university in a bachelors I didn't want until the Bologne process came along and allowed me to enroll in physics at another university. I did ok in my sophomore and junior years). I tried to get into grad school this senior year but during the course I developed symptoms of pretty severe depression (probably triggered by a break up which confirmed suspicions of my own insecurities, realizing I pretty much didn't like myself) so saw a GP in January about it. I was put on a SSRI (prozac for those in the US). After a month I felt slightly differently and was a bit more productive, made advances in my senior project and ultimately finished it on a decent note despite being a nervous wreck during my talk/defense. But feelings of inadequacy both on a personal and academic level were still part of my daily experience. I got waitlisted at a very good university but ultimately was let go. I decided to keep my head up and try again next for year but... My productivity has gone down. I had my first final yesterday which I studied for satisfactorily for months but will be lucky if I pull anything much beyond a bare passing grade because I was tired during the exam and just couldn't do it fast enough. I know I would've completed it in less time had I memorized a few solutions (it was essentially a regurgitation of past hw's/exams) but I've always studied the "honest" way. I could've chosen to not study at all and memorize answers on the last day and would've probably done better than what I did which I fear reeks of an indifferent student. Now I'm concerned that I'm irreversibly staining my grades which weren't spectacular to begin with and am ultimately closing more doors to graduate studies. I don't really have any other ambitions or hobbies in life and really can't relate to anybody, now I'm afraid of going back into the job market and spending the rest of my life as a perpetually bitter person. I'm trying to think of positive things while I spam my CV to places I'd like to work, but it is getting continually harder to conceive of a better future. Anyway I should really get back to studying now and not bring more problems upon myself, but I really needed to let this out. I don't want to concern my family anymore because they have their own problems and have already done what they can for me. I'm seeing my GP again in a few weeks and will have to tell her how I've been doing with the meds, perhaps I may have to change them and/or go into therapy of some sort. Thanks in advance for any helpful replies.