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Khantazm
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Who are you going to call when you're mooning about your purpose in life? Generally level-headed and polite members of Physics Forums!
Anyway, I graduated in July, and at the start of September started working as a loader, pretty much (complicated story involving social anxiety and, possibly, mood disorders). I thought I've got my life staked out: I've got a bunch of goal posts set in near and distant future, involving learning various largely artistic activites, and, most significantly, becoming a writer... And suddenly, two months later I find that I tend to spend my evenings and weekends chatting on the Internet and looking forward to collecting enough money for what I've dreamed of while I didn't have personal money at the University. Grabbing myself by the balls and pulling to the next goal post is an option, of course, but is there a point? One of my intentions for writing is to enlighten people (i.e. bring to their attention facts they may not have known) and add fun to their lives. But personally some noise in my ears, some videos on Youtube and a couple friends to chat with seems to be all I need in life, and... Okay, I also feel pretty old. I don't see how there can be anything great later on, despite all the evidence to the contrary. I mean, it may be rather great, but it won't be fresh and spontaneous... I could also turn my eyes on contemporary and future youth, but being young doesn't seem to be so great now, if it all ends up watching Youtube in the evenings after work for them... Anyway, rambling on, anyone care bring a bit of educated hope into the life of a fellow curious human?
Anyway, I graduated in July, and at the start of September started working as a loader, pretty much (complicated story involving social anxiety and, possibly, mood disorders). I thought I've got my life staked out: I've got a bunch of goal posts set in near and distant future, involving learning various largely artistic activites, and, most significantly, becoming a writer... And suddenly, two months later I find that I tend to spend my evenings and weekends chatting on the Internet and looking forward to collecting enough money for what I've dreamed of while I didn't have personal money at the University. Grabbing myself by the balls and pulling to the next goal post is an option, of course, but is there a point? One of my intentions for writing is to enlighten people (i.e. bring to their attention facts they may not have known) and add fun to their lives. But personally some noise in my ears, some videos on Youtube and a couple friends to chat with seems to be all I need in life, and... Okay, I also feel pretty old. I don't see how there can be anything great later on, despite all the evidence to the contrary. I mean, it may be rather great, but it won't be fresh and spontaneous... I could also turn my eyes on contemporary and future youth, but being young doesn't seem to be so great now, if it all ends up watching Youtube in the evenings after work for them... Anyway, rambling on, anyone care bring a bit of educated hope into the life of a fellow curious human?