To the OPs inability to conceptualize spin let me say this, classical mechanics is the laws of physics that govern the macroscopic universe we interact with in our day to day lives, it governs billiard balls and tops and gyroscopes, etc. In the atomic realm classical physics gave wrong answers and thus a new physics had to be developed called quantum mechanics. If one could apply classical intuition to all of quantum mechanics then quantum mechanics WOULD BE classical mechanics, which it's not. The fact that it exists at all tells you that our world of billiard balls and tops is INSUFFICIENT in this realm.
As to Drakkith spin is one of those things that the MORE abstract your understanding and thinking the more it makes sense. Many will say you prove the existence of spin by postulating the Dirac equation on the electron by considering all terms in the action (including spinors) that obey lorentz invariance and quantizing to find an extra degree of freedom. Well this is true, it can actually come straight from QM (not QFT). I'd recommend reading the 3rd chapter of Ballentine''s book on this. In a nutshell you have the result that the angular momentum generates angular motion and you can naively find the form of it which is akin to the classical case. However, you realize that you can obtain the same relations if you allow an extra term with no dependence on q or p (intrinsic), you get the same relations. In this way spin is something like a gauge, a redundancy of description of the angular momentum. You can also prove that such an intrinsic term CAN'T be added to the linear momentum.