Hello, I've done pretty thorough research and realize that this topic of "Is physics hard, can I handle it, how risky is it, etc" has been beaten to death. But I'm gonna ask for advice anyway haha. So the situation is, I have always had a love for astronomy since I was a child, and nature in general. I have always been particularly interested in abstract theoretical concepts such as relativity, higher dimensions / brane theory, string theory, black holes, etc. Basically, I'm interested in stuff that is hard to understand. However, growing up, I was not exposed to much science, other than an astronomy textbook and a NOVA VHS tape. Instead, I was exposed to aviation a lot, and thus I pursued a career as a pilot. It never really clicked with me at a young age how important it was to study science and math, and thus, I did poorly in community college. I placed into precalc 1, failed, placed into precalc 2, failed, placed into calc 1, failed. Upon reflection, I realize that my math foundation was shaky, and even though I was apparently competent enough to get into calculus, I would find myself slipping over a lack of basic algebraic knowledge, which was ultimately a result of lacking motivation. My problem is the way math is taught, which has no applications really. It is taught to be memorized, but is not shown how it can be used in a practical sense. That's where I lose interest. But I will gladly watch videos of someone explaining the math that describes time dilation of a spacecraft moving at 99.9% light speed. Ultimately, I just stopped showing up to calculus, and failed for that reason. At the time, I was not pursuing a science degree, but was just kind of "floating around" in school, because I "knew" I wanted to be a pilot, which requires a bachelor's in any subject, so I did not take math seriously at all. My GPA is below a 2.0. At the moment, I am retaking classes to fix my GPA, and getting an A in Astronomy (of course, lol). So now, for whatever reason, I decide that I have an unshakeable desire to work in science. I am 22 currently, with poor academic performance. My friends from high school are all graduating this summer, and I have not even completed an associates. My current situation is that once I climb out of the hole I've dug myself, I can try to get into Embry-Riddle (aeronautical university), or University of Washington. I have spoken with a UW advisor and she laid out a plan for me. The aeronautics degree is easy. Very light on the math, mostly classes like "risk management" and "meteorology". I already have my pilot's license, and most of the prereqs. It would seem the most logical path to continue pursuing, considering my situation. The other possibility is trying to get into UW, which will cost me at least another year at my cc making up for rereqs, and reinforcing my math foundation. So that will be about 7 years to complete my bachelor's total, which is pretty ridiculous. From what I read, physics is pretty risky. Very high likely hood of washing out, low chance of actually securing a job in physics even after you finish with PhD. My fear is that I will get overly-hyped up, bite off more than I can chew, and wash out, realizing that I threw away a perfectly good flying career on a whim. One thing that crossed my mind is that since some people can do double-majors in physics in math, maybe I can continue my advanced flight training and eventually part-time flying job, while going to school for physics. This way, I can fall back on flying if I wash out. But I don't know if this is realistic. I see some people say, "Physics is easy. You have plenty of free time". And then I will see another say, "You will be up all night every night banging your head against the wall". I want no-BS answers, how heavy is the work load? I can probably anticipate that I will require more time than the average person due to my math deficiency. As for being a pilot, they don't care if you major in astrophysics, music, english, psychology, womens' studies, whatever. A bachelor's is a bachelor's. So I would certainly opt out of putting myself at unnecessary risk, if it is very likely that I will wash out of physics. That being said, I would rather be working at an observatory than in a cockpit any day. It's not even a competition. And every time I tell myself to back out of physics, I get quite emotional about it, especially since my social media feeds are often flooded with science news. I almost can't stand looking at it anymore. So my emotions seem to be conflicting with reality haha. So I'm curious if anyone has realistic advice for me. I think I already know what the answer will ultimately be. I'd be glad to hear of anyone's' stories of success after failure as well, or even stories of failure so I can more-accurately gauge the risk. Thanks.