I graduated from high school back in 2010. I let a year pass by doing nothing, thought i would relax let my head cool off. I applied for engineering in the year 2011, (i never really wanted to go for it it's my parents choice and they kept telling me that i should apply for it) and now, 2 years later i have not had any progress, since the program i have applied for was not suitable for me so i left Now i am unemployed and confused about my life what should i do? I'm a 22 years old unemployed bum depending on my parents to make it to the next day of my life On the other hand i feel very old, and i am unable to study and keep up with the young kids, I feel like my brain is slowing down already, i have felt that since i hit like 20, I felt like my brain is slowing down and i am unable to take a lot of information at once I thought of applying for IT(programming) next, But i am not sure anymore what to do with my life, I still feel depressed, Since like when i look at the people that i grew up their all pretty much working and have done something compared to me, I feel like i have been just really dumb through out my life and I've never really planned ahead of time I was looking at some youtube videos lately, Some people have achieved like a lot when they are younger, Compared to them I'm really old and i feel like it's too late for me to be able to study again and actually to make it anywhere close to their level or on par with them. In reality if you don't have a hand or leg you can't really touch or walk, I feel the same with my brain it's like i have lost my young ability as in my fast learning curve and i will never be as skilled or as fast as others will be on learning early since i am already capped. What should i do now? Please kindly leave out optimistic replies of *try harder* advice, I would prefer to be more realistic about my age gap and slowing learning curve because it does exist sadly.