I turned 18, had a very small inheritance, lived like a hermit, figured out 'i r slave' and 'i r girl', turned 19, had no $, was suicidal, met 30 year old Canadian genderqueer person on a forum, we talk to each other like crazy, they start supporting me financially ($600 USD/mo for 8 month period, when their job wasn't great pay), we try to find solutions, can't really find any, they decide 'fine, you're moving to Seattle', they find room for me ASAP and buy me a ticket, i fully trust them, take plane from Midwest to Seattle, start living in room in Lynnwood 5 months ago, person is subleasing room to me, they made promises to the Canadian person regarding how they'd treat me, and promised that they'd give me 1 month notice for eviction, Canadian person comes to visit me for 1 week, 1 week after i get to WA, the week with them was the happiest week of my life, then they left me here, ALONE, and i wait for their return above everything else, waiting waiting waiting please come back, or let me be with you, roomie that leases room to me turns out to be a lying druggie, I'm still depressed, so i don't do much, Canadian person says I'm too emotionally needy and has a nervous breakdown, with them gone, the focus of my life is gone, so i spiral into despair and self-loathing, do nothing for a couple of months, decide that programming would be an ideal way to make $, this situation comes up.