First of all, I just joined the forum! I might not be much of a contribution, but I can try! So, to the point! You see, I am in serious need of guidance here. I ran into something of a brick wall. I'll be in my first year of high school next year (engineering-focused, it was my second choice, and I really messed up the admission exams), and I'm not exactly happy with my recent progress. I'm 15 by the way. Not sure if it matters though. I've never been great at mathematics. Sure, never been bad, never really slowed down significantly. I had some problems with more complex algebra, and still do right now, but if I refresh my memory, I'm sure I can manage to solve an equation or two. I'm definitely not a prodigy. Not even close. Usually got A's, but because of my lack of determination and only recent discovery of my passion for natural sciences, I did let my grade slip a couple of times. I've got an IQ of 125. That's what I got six months ago. First time I measured it. Pretty miserable, but it could be worse. So already we've established that I am not a genius by any means. That was slightly disappointing (as intellect was the only thing I really had, or thought I had). But! These past few months were cool. Quadratic equations are fun, and so is geometry. Trigonometry is simply indescribably amazing. I love every bit of it. Solving problems with it is just such a lovely change of pace from the constant and boring word problems in algebra. I am, without doubt, the best in trigonometry in my class, but as to everything else...? Ehh, not so much... Physics! Well, physics is really cool in my opinion! Don't really know anyone who shares my interests, so I study alone, or I try. I'm really into quantum mechanics and general relativity, probably because I cannot comprehend them for the life of me! It's this sort of masochism, where I push myself to read Hawking's books, even though I don't really understand a word of it. Special relativity was alright. I sort of explained the whole thing to myself, not sure if I did it accurately, but I sort of understand. Oh but QM is terrible! It's like a mythological beast! Cut off one head, and it grows two more! The books lose me on interference. Principle of Uncertainty is about all I can "understand". I suppose I could be a bit like Brandon Stark, if you know what I mean. Shooting a bow and missing every time, more experienced mates laughing in my general direction, and my father asking which one was a marksman at twelve? Well, sure, fifteen, twelve, there's a difference. Principle is the same. Maybe I'm aiming too high for now (pun intended). I'd say my lack of understanding in those topics is irrelevant, as I haven't done calculus yet, but no matter. I'm also trash at chess. God, I can't play that game at all. Maybe because I've been diagnosed with ADHD (I don't believe the diagnosis, however), and can't keep my attention on the game, not sure. I used to enjoy video games, lost patience. Play one for 20 minutes and forget about it. As a result, been going through severe boredom (waiting for No Man's Sky to come out). I enjoy philosophy. I know that's a part of physics and mathematics, so maybe that's a plus? I also enjoy writing, and I'd say I could be fairly good at writing articles. Fairly. For an amateur writer, at least. I know what people want, in terms of articles. How? Because I am like most people. I am very average. Only unlike most average people, I am self-aware about my non-uniqueness, and am capable of utilizing it. I suppose that in itself makes me unique. I think I just made a paradox! But it really is just a variation of the liar's paradox, isn't it? I can't say I'm a very good or disciplined student. I've never been forced to study, never needed to. I know I should. And I try. I know that's a huge part of the journey. But I won't lie to myself. I'm a slob. A total slob without any motivation to do anything. I'd really like to teach at a university one day. I know, I know. You need to be super intelligent to do that. But you know what? I spit on IQ. I bet if I took the test now, I could score anything I wanted (well, no, but I believe I might be able to score in the 130's). Memorized the patterns of the questions. It holds no weight for me. Well, that's a lie. It is a bit discouraging. But hey! I don't choose my path because it's easy, but because it's hard, just as the United States did when attempting to land the first man on the surface of the Moon! So. I know you can't accurately answer my question, because you don't know me in person and how I perform in different fields and tasks. But still! If anyone could, well, recommend anything, I'd be glad. If anyone was like me, and achieved success anyway, I'd probably find motivation to do stuff again. Sorry 'bout the long post. Sorry if it seems like I'm venting or something, it's really a sincere question of mine. Wouldn't want to waste years studying something I'll never be good at, eh? Sorry for grammatical errors. Foreigner. Thanks lads! EDIT: Yes, yes, I'm ashamed of my diagnosis. I'm a cripple. At least an intellectual cripple. Is that politically correct to say? Don't care, I'm referring to myself, so I'm not hurting anyone. I wish I didn't have ADHD (like I said, I think it's an over-diagnosed heap of nonsense), because it is, again, a severely discouraging factor. Any physicists or mathematicians with that? I hope so... Otherwise I'll develop an addiction to Xanax. Edit: Sorry for editing the title. This one feels better.